Cramp!!!

Ooohhhh so I had a massive cramp! So you know what I am thinking!! Implant!! Lol oh dear I have totally lost the plot. So here we go again for another 10 days! Who's with me??

AF Here

Yes of course AF come yesterday so all is sad here,

But I need a lot of work on my teeth all being done this week and so I will need a lot of drugs so maybe its a good thing?? Lets stay positive!

And so I hope you are all going to log in same time next few weeks for my next phytom pregnancy!! Whats that all about? So strange, Damn you TWW!

BFN...what else

Again, thought I would try a test even though only have 2 days to wait for AF. 

I still have all the perfect symptoms,  one day of cramps then bit of spotting for a few days.  Can't feel AF coming at all so of course I'm gonna think I should take a test!!

Even had tender boobs so I thought I was on  to a winner, plus I found a test at the back of the draw, you have to use these things up really,  right??

So the strip test gave me a BFN so I left it for an hour , went back to see if it even gave me a evaporation line but nooooooo. Not even that so I can think oooooh maybe...but wait the test is out of date???? Ooooh so it's broken...lol...we all know AF is coming in the next few days don't we.

Maybe I should start rubbing my tummy , I am sure I read somewhere that helps????  Crazy lady better get some more sleep!

More symptoms!

So here we are again. Super thirsty! And of course I think it's a little weird so let me just google that.... oh you guessed it! Many lovely ladies have that as a symptom in the TWW.

So I am this close to testing again,  but I only have 3 left! I can't get hold of any more at the moment so should I chance it??? Or wait wait wait like a normal person would until they are a day late!

I promise I was a normal person before all this!

I Caved!

Oh dear, i did it, I caved!!

I took a test, I know, I know, I shouldn't have.... I got a BFN
Of course, we all knew that would happen, in my defence , its because I read on a website yesterday that you can take the strip tests 10+ DPO , I am 14 DPO! So of course I was gonna take one, only 4 days till AF but I cant wait till then!

And of course now I wish I had waited as I have 2 tests left to last this month and next! But this is it, no more tests till after AF is meant to arrive. You and I both know this is nearly impossible!!

So anyway, I have all the symptoms, albeit, others this month, I am super thirsty , I have the mild thrush, little cramping and today I even had very small spotting! As if baby planting was going on!! So I tell you , it is really my fault I tested?? You would have too! Admit it!

So its clearly my bodys fault and Googles fault and these other websites telling me a strip test will detect a baby by now, so I have to have all these problems and symptoms, my temperature is still high and STILL probably get AF in 4 days...... Depressed much!

So yeah BFN, no matter how many times I hold it up to the light desperately looking for a faint line! Turning it all kinds of angles, oh is that one? No no , we all know its not!!

But after all these symptoms, stupid me , still have the glimmer of hope that the test was cheap rubbish and AF aint coming! So I need to wait a week, Still blogging my everyday symptoms of course, crazy lady signing off ,,,,,,

Well today was a weird one, as usual my body is here shouting pregnant!!

Caught a glimpse of the top half of my body and to see things are appearing a bit darker? Total sign! But no, I am ignoring that, all in my head surely?? I did do a double take though,

All of a sudden in the middle of a normal working day I get this cramp, a bad one! whats going on?? It had me buckled over, quick, check the App, got a good week yet till AF so you all know what i am thinking! But stop that! Because we all have been here before, month after month...

Of course I am wondering if i have started this blog and then if i am pregnant already how short will that be?? But anyway I would like to hear from other crazy, i mean totally normal ladies like myself.

So, bad cramp and then ten minutes later another one, a sudden urge to go to the toilet, arrh google it, pregnant! Super early signs, nothing to do with the dodgy chinese I had last night!

What I have tried to do now is look for signs I cant make up in my head, for example I read about the temperature thing, little confusing, but basically, when you ovulate your temperature goes up, so I thought I would give this a go! But it's the first time I have done it so cant be that accurate, but worth a try, sure enough my temperature was high. Problem is, the day is drops is when ovulation is done?? So you have to just hope you got the day right so you can say, phew thank goodness we done 'it' yesterday!

However if it doesn't drop for days after like it should, total sign! So guess what guys! Total high temperature still today, and I am 9 DPO so how can i fake that ? No  no, could be anything, like the fact I am staying in a hot country for the next 6 weeks and its 47 degrees?

But when you first start TCC, how confusing is it when you see all these abbreviations?? TTC? TWW? What does DPO mean?? Its like you are just meant to know all these things. Where is the guide book for these? Who made these up and who called it Aunt Flow! Anyway , I will get off my soap box about it, its just the first time I was TTC was a nightmare! spent ages finding out what AF meant more than how to actually get pregnant.

So lets clear it up...

AF - Aunt Flow (period)
TTC - Trying to Conceive
TWW - Two weeks wait
DPO - Days Past Ovulation

Oh and dont forget to send any TTC goers fairy dust! Or baby dust, its the done thing apperently, how sweet! 

TTW Start

Welcome to TWW Madness by a crazy lady!

Thats because I am TTC for the 2nd time and so now I kinda know the symptoms or how is works i keep tricking myself into thinking i am pregnant! So not having much fun with these phantom pregnancies every month!

I am 37 and so the clock is ticking! As i am overweight as well which is a whole other blog right??

So, am i really a crazy lady?? Just because i take a test about 8 times in the TWW?? Everyone of us does that right? Not the good tests, as who could afford that? But the cheap strip ones we get 3 for a pound etc. In Fact i think i got 10 for £3 so bargain! Anyway, does that make me crazy really...

Last month i was a few days late so bam! i brought the very expensive test , worked out a whole way i was telling DH even though i have taken the strip tests, all BFN but i swear i saw a faint line!? (faint lines, lets come back to that) So i was excited, after all i had a few cramps , tender boobs, all, if you google them your pregnant! OMG don't Google TWW symptoms, if you sneeze twice in a row your pregnant. But who am i kidding? you're gonna do it, like i do every month, every time something new. Clearly the expensive test was broken, it said i was not pregnant... next day AF!

I swore i would wait for a week after i was due my period next... so here I am today , 8 DPO thinking ooooh i have symptoms, so i will blog it! Every month so all the poor ladies who think they are crazy and alone, NOPE! I am here! Maybe i am alone? No one reading this at all anyway !?

So how do i know i am 8 DPO ? Because i have a lovely app that tells me so , it tells me all kinds of things, it even wants to know where my cervix is? How on earth do i know? Where God put it! Inside me....

So the app is new for me, because.. you know, i wont be one of them sad desperate women who do everything! Have the app, pee on a stick everyday to see if you are fertile , stare at toilet paper for mucus, which lets face it, TMI! especially as i saw some describe it as sticky rice or runny egg?? really ?? do we have to? Errrk ... And after you have done the deed no time for cuddling, gotta get my legs in the air! No no, not me, i only do about 80% of them things so no crazy lady here!

So, i will blog about all the crazy things we go in TWW, just to show you , we all do it... right?